A New Dawn

Recently, I have decided to take a breather as my burnout was already causing me to act in ways that I don't want to and also I used this opportunity to seek help and rest. During this time, I realized that I was on the right path of healing but there was something lacking, and that was God.

I remember back in 2017, I have penned a testimonial during the conclusion of our Alpha sessions. Here, I told a modest audience which composed of my fellow Alpha attendees and staff that God has lifted me from the depths of my past. God also impressed upon me that I was a lot better during those days that I was still with Him.

It was also during this burnout phase that I started to behave like my past self (2016 and below) who was still trying to relieve the pain of her wounds thru behaviors that don't sit well with others. Right now, I admit that doing my past habits such as scripture reading, prayer and even listening to the Feast still feel like a complete chore to me. But then again, my Afterfeast family still remind me that being with God is still the best option out there. I may be treated by the best doctors and therapy methods, but it is all for naught without God.  

I guess I would also like to ask for your help thru prayer as I want 2024 to be a year of healing and restoration as I move forward from the messes of 2022 and 2023.