The Looking Glass

Sometimes, people are like matches...they light you up and spark a flame into your heart. Little do you know, those match people are burning out, and when they burn out, who will be the one to light a spark into their hearts?  After all, they have given what they have-and now, they cannot give it to you anymore. So you decide to spark a new set of matches, and one after the other, they burn out as well. As the last match dies out, you throw away the box of used matches and buy a new set. The cycle continues again and again. Your heart was lit up, but at what expense?

  Hey dear readers, I know it has been a long time since I had consistently written something in this little blog of mine (well, excluding "Stay" ) but it was quite a long gap between this and my last post for 2021. If you're all wondering what the heck happened to me, it was because I was feeling burnt out lately. At first, I thought it was just stress since I was also adjusting to a major change in my workload (read: my boss and I covered for someone's mess when they left) and I thought I would get over it in due time... I was wrong. Soon, my boss noticed that I was losing focus and could no longer adjust to the sudden demands of the workplace and it turned into a negative feedback cycle which made me doubt myself even more and caused depression. I started to lose interest in the things that once made me tick and felt more like a spectator in life instead of living it. Comparing myself to friends and other people also became a consistent companion despite the many w...