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A New Dawn

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Recently, I have decided to take a breather as my burnout was already causing me to act in ways that I don't want to and also I used this opportunity to seek help and rest. During this time, I realized that I was on the right path of healing but there was something lacking, and that was God. I remember back in 2017, I have penned a testimonial during the conclusion of our Alpha sessions. Here, I told a modest audience which composed of my fellow Alpha attendees and staff that God has lifted me from the depths of my past. God also impressed upon me that I was a lot better during those days that I was still with Him. It was also during this burnout phase that I started to behave like my past self (2016 and below) who was still trying to relieve the pain of her wounds thru behaviors that don't sit well with others. Right now, I admit that doing my past habits such as scripture reading, prayer and even listening to the Feast still feel like a complete chore to me. But then again, m...
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A Letter to myself

The title says it all..
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Renovation

Good news, this blog is about to get a revamp just because I feel like it (please don't judge) so all my posts will have appropriate labels for quicker access both on your end and mine. I may also change the layout, but yes let's just take things one step at a time.
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Witches

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  A little story that I have made back in 2014 with a few minor edits from my present-day self.
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It's okay to seek help

  (mild trigger warning: suicide) Wazzup blog-verse! It's been a while since I posted here, and it makes sense as I had just hit rock bottom after my last post. I guess it's time for me to blog once again considering that it's September and that's three months until 2023 ends.  If you're wondering what happened to me, well I hit rock bottom-bottom last June. My boss noticed that my symptoms were getting out of hand and requested me to seek help, because of this and the pain that I wanted to kill myself. In a glimmer of hope, I decided to make a decision and that was to seek another psychiatrist for June 24. After declining an invite to attend the birthday celebration of my colleague's son, I decided to stop being lazy and push thru with the session. After an hour, I felt like a new sense of hope came to me. This new doctor was caring, kind and understanding, they also gave me new prescription for medication since the previous medications I took had turned me int...
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Naw Bro You Just Gotta Not Suck! (Part 1 - The Not-so-sucky Beginning)

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Today, I had just logged in once again to Gaia Online and it was a quite amusing to see my past as a clan member at the NBYJGNSC (Naw Bro You Just Gotta Not Suck Clan) if you're all wondering how did I get into a clan even if Clash of Clans  did not exist yet during that time? Well, it all started in ZOMG! Which was a flash game made by Gaia a long time ago (any more hints and you will probably end up guessing how old I am)  As seen in this picture, I was hanging around the Papa Saw stage in the game since it gave out lots of gold (you know, for buying virtual avatar items) at a low skill cap and most Gaians would hang out to farm and make tons of virtual cash to buy virtual items. Since the game would encourage you to team up, I had no choice but to eat the frog and start crewing up with random Filipinos. At first, I was awkward and I admit that I did NOT want to socialize not even in the internet, but my random crewmates proved to me that I have nothing to fear. After a few ...
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The people pleaser's dilemma

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 Growing up, children tend to march to the beat of their own drums.  As much as the people pleaser tries to stop, they will continue to seek the sensation of being loved and appreciated... All at the expense of themselves. They live life as ghosts, trying to find themselves-some people break the spell, and are able to regain what their lost selves. But then, some people are not able to escape and become empty shells of who they once were. But then again, there is always hope.  The true self will always find a way to reemerge, no matter how many times we try to bury and hide it. But then, if ever our true self emerges once again... How will you react?  Will you embrace or reject it? If you choose the latter, it's alright-but remember what I have just said. Only you can end the cycle.
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