Hope for the Weird

Centuries ago, I admit that I was a weird and dramatic kid in high school. It can't be
helped though, since I have read that being a teen would bring forth a LOT of changes. I never expected it to be overwhelming and confusing at the same time, I felt like an alien stranded in a foreign planet. When I was a kid, everything came easy. Sadly, things changed when I was a teen and it just felt like I was lagging, I wasn't really into fashion and makeup and I had a phobia of social media back then.

On the other side of the coin, I knew about the latest music and game trends and had a handful of crushes-but I chose to retreat to the other side of things. I found friends who would accept me for who I am, but everything else still seemed foreign and weird-but at least, I survived with a little help.

When I was in college, I was back at square one. Since my friends and I had gone to separate schools at that time, I felt overwhelmed and confused once again and it didn't help that my limited amount of social skills would bite me so hard that it bled...and I got a nasty wound afterwards. Again, things eventually improved for the better and I did hone some of the talents that I never knew were in me.

I led class presentations, wrote a bunch of articles and papers, got some standing ovations here and there, wrote a blog for my internship and even cosplayed as a K-pop idol for the yearbook shoot. To be honest, despite the calls to grow up-I guess I continued to march to the beat of my own drum,...even if it hurts.

It was only then when I got out of the four walls of the classroom where I ended up thriving. It was a bit awkward, but I grew more confident, I started to like wearing and doing my own makeup (just not all the time), I stepped out of the shadows and most of all, I was introduced to the One who loves my soul. He taught me that my self-esteem was nothing, compared to the glory of humility. He taught me that there was hope, and that even those that He favored had to wait.

So for the weird kids like me, there is hope. Yes, high school or college might not be your "prime" but it's alright, God has reasons for that. I know that waiting is a struggle, and it's hard to smile in a world where everything is foreign, but the thing is..He does understand. Everything that is happening will have a reason, and you will smile upon looking back.

Have faith and never give up.