The Greatest Love of All
Today, I realized that in order to have a happy and fulfilling life-I had to learn how to rely on myself and not to depend on other people-especially now that I am a professional and I have to act like one. In fact, I could still remember that time when I cut off my ties with a friend of mine since her neediness was already suffocating me; Recently, I realized that I became like her-needy and pushy.
Because of this realization, I also learned that this self-hate was the root of all my problems. When I was lonely, I fidgeted and wondered why they left me alone instead of appreciating the fact that I was with myself. The same could also be said for me and my crushes, instead of looking for a relationship to complement oneself, it even came to the point where conflicts happened just because I was looking for companionship with others instead of improving thyself.
To be honest, I learned that I had to love myself when I felt lonely-I realized that even if I had a significant other, I would still feel lonely since that person probably has their own life and I had mine too. I admit that I had lost sight of myself and learned to rely on others when in fact, they have their own demons to fight and I had mine. I suddenly recalled that episode in Steven Universe where Pearl admits to Garnet that she only used her to fuse into Sardonyx since she felt incomplete and useless when in fact, Garnet actually admires Pearl for her strengths. There, Pearl learns that Ruby and Sapphire's bond wasn't perfect and they had their own weaknesses as well-but they chose not to let it bog them.
Returning to my situation, there I learned that I had to find myself again and the best way to do that is through hobbies. Recently, I returned to my old hobby of assembling Gunpla (Gundam Model Kits) and writing once again (after a long hiatus) So far, I have learned a lot of life lessons right now especially on Gunpla. Who knew that a "geeky" hobby such as Gunpla could teach me life lessons and make me feel better about myself? Yeah, I never expected that either.
As I close this entry, I am still finding ways on how to love myself once again. To quote the late and great Whitney Houston:
"The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all"
Loving one's self isn't easy, especially for one who has a blurry relationship with herself-but just like leveling up a Sakura Pegacorn Fluff, the payoff is definitely worth it in the end.
My new mantra: May I continue to love and treat myself with the same care, kindness and appreciation as I do to others.
Because of this realization, I also learned that this self-hate was the root of all my problems. When I was lonely, I fidgeted and wondered why they left me alone instead of appreciating the fact that I was with myself. The same could also be said for me and my crushes, instead of looking for a relationship to complement oneself, it even came to the point where conflicts happened just because I was looking for companionship with others instead of improving thyself.
To be honest, I learned that I had to love myself when I felt lonely-I realized that even if I had a significant other, I would still feel lonely since that person probably has their own life and I had mine too. I admit that I had lost sight of myself and learned to rely on others when in fact, they have their own demons to fight and I had mine. I suddenly recalled that episode in Steven Universe where Pearl admits to Garnet that she only used her to fuse into Sardonyx since she felt incomplete and useless when in fact, Garnet actually admires Pearl for her strengths. There, Pearl learns that Ruby and Sapphire's bond wasn't perfect and they had their own weaknesses as well-but they chose not to let it bog them.
Returning to my situation, there I learned that I had to find myself again and the best way to do that is through hobbies. Recently, I returned to my old hobby of assembling Gunpla (Gundam Model Kits) and writing once again (after a long hiatus) So far, I have learned a lot of life lessons right now especially on Gunpla. Who knew that a "geeky" hobby such as Gunpla could teach me life lessons and make me feel better about myself? Yeah, I never expected that either.
As I close this entry, I am still finding ways on how to love myself once again. To quote the late and great Whitney Houston:
"The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all"
Loving one's self isn't easy, especially for one who has a blurry relationship with herself-but just like leveling up a Sakura Pegacorn Fluff, the payoff is definitely worth it in the end.
My new mantra: May I continue to love and treat myself with the same care, kindness and appreciation as I do to others.
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